speedy gonzales

so i have 2 minutes to write this post so i am going to go as fast as possible which means that this is going to have no cohesion or anything what so ever nor will it make any sense what i am talking about so i apologize to my non existent readers....unless you do exist in which case i apologize for saying that you dont. and i love you very much (in a platonic way) anyways happy2010 only one more year till i graduate, im counting the days, not literally yet because the number is too big to make a significant dent in it ever so yeah maybe ill actually start officially doing that once i finally start senior year, or maybe when i get into college which right now is looking pretty bleak according to my father. oh well. ill just become a vagabond if that doesnt work for me. ive heard cardboard boxes are very comfortable. so lets see new years resolutions surprisingly i am keeping them, i will post later about them in more detail but right now i think i have to go. also by later i mean maybe tomorrow because i am stage managing my schools musical and i have a performance tonight. i also have to write a 10 page paper which i am crossing my fingers i have an extension for because that would save my life and my grade because this paper is worth a lot considering its like the only thing that we have done for the past weeks in that class. anyways...lets see everyone is walking away now so that probably means that i should go too but as usual im not one to follow crowds. but in this case if i dont that will result in a detention. im not a fan of detentions either. although i would be if it were like it is in the movies where you just sit in a room which everyone else. at my school we do things for other teachers, either that or clean the school. super fun ising it? and you can only do it on wednesdays. and if you cant do it after school you do it before. at 7AM. thats the best part about it. (clearly i am being completely sarcastic about this because it would just be very strange if i was actually excited about detention.) hmmmmm what else can i talk about in like 30 seconds...hmm WIND not a fan, i actually am one of those people who can literally get pushed around by the wind i almost got blown over today and that is with like a 50 lb backpack on. that i call impressive. umm ok now i have to officially go so i will get back to you (if your out there) soon!

apologies again if you were missing my blog. please tell me if you were it would really make my day SIGNIFICANTLY better. and it has already started off good as i saw three diplomatic cars with license plates from countries i hadnt seen before (Hungary, Belgium and Finland) ill explain that later.

and with that i leave you

appearance

it's interesting how boys appearance changes drastically as they age where as girls look pretty much the same from about the age of 8 or 9 i mean with a few changes but if you compare pictures of a girl at age 9 to a girl at age 17 you can still tell its the same girl and her face still looks pretty much the same. well i guess they look older but with boys..sometimes you cant even see that its the same person. they look so much younger! like a boy at age 12 looks so different than his counterpart at 16! especially when they get into like their 20s its just so different. i guess it has to do with like girls maturing earlier mentally and physically but still it trips you up a little when you come back to school and see your classmates and think wow they did not look like that in middle school.

ps this is not meant to be creepy or anything...it was just a thought.

skillz

Its interesting how there are things that all kids want to do when they are little like soccer, ballet, gymnastics, some sort of martial art, some sort of musical instrument...you know what im talking about. you know those little kids who think "it would be so cool to that!! " but then they get bored of it and quit with only a year or a few months of whatever they chose or a combination of them under their belt. but then there are these few kids who stick with it. those who continue years later into it eventually becoming world cup soccer players, olympic gymnasts, concert pianists... its almost like survival of the fittest. weeding out those who cant handle it, or those who just get bored of it or those who just dont have the talent. But i have to give credit to those who stick with it. because i am one of those people, but of course not to the same extent. i play the piano. i have for the past 11 years. 12 come february. and i know its hard to stick with something that long to that level. but im not nearly as dedicated as some of the people that started with me. i mean its kinda hard to when you go to a very demanding school. its almost like going to two different schools with a LOT of homework from both of them. which is why i guess its a smart idea that people who are at that level that way your teachers understand what you are dealing with. but anyways, they have incredible dedication and i cant even compare to them nor do i put myself at the same level as them. so if anyone reading this is one of those people i admire your dedication and your skill. i know how hard you have worked for that. congrats. and every time you tell someone about your skill and they say wow i wish i would have stuck with it, just think about how you did.

women & girls

i dont really have a full discussion formed for this...it was more of just a thought that randomly came to my head...so dont expect anything really well written, not that i ever produce that. my thoguht was:

woman or a girl. when does it change? when do you start calling yourself a woman versus a girl?

of course theres the scientific explination that is like a girl becomes a woman when she gets her period but most girls now a days are getting them when they are like 10 and i dont think that mentally those girls are women yet. and then theres the age of 18 where society accepts you as an adult which also i guess defines you as a woman versus a girl. or maybe when you graduate from college and enter the "real world" maybe thats when you can really start saying to yourself I am a woman now

maybe its when other people start seeing you as a woman...

but i guess it all has to do with your mentality. how you think of yourself. maybe you are really mature and you consider yourself a woman at 13 or maybe you never consider yourself a woman, after all inside everyone is a child for all their life. even when your 80 you still have a 6 year old, tucked inside, hidden away from the world. so i guess inside every woman is a girl.

halloween

i know its a little bit late but whatever im sure you had better things to do on halloween than to read my blog so here it is now. halloween is my favorite holiday, at least it was. im slightly starting to dislike it now. then again i am in that awkward stage for halloween. Theres the stage when your little and your like FREE CANDY/CANDY!!!!! and you get all excited about dressing up (which i will touch on later) and then you spend all night knocking on peoples doors asking for candy. its the one night of the year where its acceptable to take candy from strangers. Then you get older and people start to give you weird looks when your trick or treating unless you are with a small child and they ask you "arent you a little old" or other invasive questions essentially making you feel bad or uncomfortable for wanting free candy. candy never loses its appeal! and its still fun to dress up but also the costumes start becoming less and less scary and creative and more and more whatever i can find in my closet that can pass as a costume OR the slutty version of anything i can think of. Although there are the true halloween fans who are die hard scary masks fake blood, the works. kudos to you. That period lasts for a while pretty much until you hit the age where people are grossed out at the idea of you wearing scandalous clothing or until you have children and you have to act decent and like a good role model. but there is that awkward stage in between trick or treating and kick ass halloween parties and later taking your own kids trick or treating where your like well what do i do now? I think thats where I am now. i guess i could go to parties but its not so much that its halloween than its an excuse to have a party. I like halloween though. its the one time of the year where its acceptable to be something that your not, even encouraged. it gives you a chance to step out of your shell and try something else. or even just to be goofy for one night. its also a chance to show off your creativity at making costumes. but i think people are starting to lose the spirit of it. kind of like christmas. you know how people have started just celebrating the fact that you get presents instead of celebrating the birth of baby jesus. i have fallen to that, but im not religious so i dont feel that bad. but halloween has become more about free candy and dressing up like a slut than celebrating the true halloween spirit. which although i havent done extensive research on and this is definitely not hard historical facts but halloween basically consisted of the idea that on october 31st, the boundaries between the spiritual plane and the earthly realm or the living and the dead blurred and the dead could come back to earth. so to prevent this people would dress up to try and scare the spirits away and the pumpkins were carved to try and keep them out of their homes...theres a lot of different cultural things. but its all lost its meaning now.

losing meaning

It’s ironic how the two words that have lost the most significance are the two strongest emotions that a person is capable of feeling. Love and hate. People loosely throw them around as often as they throw around any other emotion it seems as though there is no in between, its either on one extreme or the other. You hear people saying “oh my God I love that!” or expressing their love to people they have only met once in their life. And on the other hand you hear people saying how much they hate someone they have never even met or how much they hate that particular flavor of ice cream. words that once used to mean so much now mean barely anything to people. I'm not sure if its because people use them so frequently that they have lost their meaning or if it is because they lost their meaning that people use them so frequently (although the first explanation makes more sense) but the point is that its sad. you dont have a word to express emotions anymore unless you are one of the few people who dont overuse it. but even then you cant be sure that your "significant other" or whoever your talking to will understand the significance that you peg behind this word, be it hate or love. I guess it doesnt help either that these are two pretty undefinable words and even though the dictionary tries to define them, everyone has their own definition that sill holds valid because frankly you cant define emotions. they are something to be felt, not told. but even if you did want to tell you dont have the words anymore. thanks modern society for finding yet another way to fuck up people's relationships.

freckles

Have you ever noticed that lately children don’t have freckles anymore??

Think about it, when was the last time that you saw a child under the age of say 10 years with freckles? It’s not only the redheads that are dying out but so are freckled children, but that doesn’t have so much to do with genetics. That has more to do with modernization.

So I have composed some theories on the reasons for the loss of freckles:

Theory 1: Children spend way too much time inside. This kind of ties into child obesity also but that’s a different topic. Children don’t play outside as much as they used to before all the fancy video games and everything came along. They think ‘why go outside and run around in a field when I can play video games or WEBKINZ,’ which is apparently the newest big thing among children although technically it’s just a rip off of neopets. It’s not only the children though, im not criticizing parenting styles but sometimes it’s hard to balance your life with children and the TV gives you that much needed short break to get some of that work done or even just to kick back and relax. So you plop your kids down in front of the electronic nanny. It’s ok every now and then but you know you have a problem when your kids prefer that over anything else. But I guess its not only the electronics’ fault though, although that does have a lot to do with it considering that to a child today, their favorite TV show seems much more appealing than running around in a field. But even that is hard to come across. There’s a lack of outside places for kids to play. Parks and playgrounds have been transformed and instead we have parking lots and skyscrapers or office buildings. Even though that might be helpful when your looking for a spot to park your car or a nice building to work in…but children are not welcome in either of those places, after all would you want your kid running around in a parking lot? I guess grey is the new green.

Theory 2: overprotective parents. Which further divides into 2 subtopics. First, no child goes outside in the summer, and even in the winter now, without sunscreen. And of course it has to be over at least SPF 30 , and that’s on the low end, and especially on their faces. Everyone is so worried about skin cancer and cancer in general which granted is not something that you should take lightly because it is a serious thing, but a lighter sunscreen or maybe even a little time in the sun without sunscreen would not kill you. Lets not get too crazy though because enough just might if you have bad luck.

Second, parents don’t let their children get hurt anymore. God forbid they need to take out a band-aid or that their child shed a drop of blood. Now I know I’m not a parent but you cant baby them that much after they are literally babies. Having reached maybe 4 years old you have to let them get hurt and you have to let them experiment. They can handle it and they have to learn somehow. Besides, your skin heals! Your body is prepared to fix the little things, maybe it will hurt for a few days or even a few minutes but its not that big of a deal. It will happen eventually so you might as well be there when it happens to take care of it. Besides, at that age scars are cool. I’m not saying let your kid do crazy things and end you both up in the ER but let them climb a tree if they want to! Hell, let them fall out of the tree. You know the lesson will get across that way. Yes there may be hospital bills, but again, casts are even cooler than scars to kids, and don’t you want your kid to be happy?